Tuesday 30 June 2009

Community turns 146

This last Sunday we celebrated the dedication of St Jude's some 146 years. In so doing we celebrated not the building but the community which has worshiped, served and supported one another over that time.

St Jude's has always been committed to community and to being open and welcoming to all. And it shows in the ministries operating within the church and the variety of people who attend. Often people ask why I am at St Jude's. My answer is simple, 'it's a good place to be, there is no rush to get anywhere in terms of numbers, achievements or activities'. Yet the numbers are stable, each day great things are achieved within the ministries of the church and the variety and number of activities and their attendances blossom.

To be is the hardest thing to do for it asks us to trust our experience, our knowledge of who we are and of what we have to offer. Avoiding the mad scramble to be relevant is vital for the faith of any community. The Christian church, from its inception has been, on the whole irrelevant. It's message of unconditional love, doing unto others, putting others before self and loving your enemies ,of which the life and death of Jesus is the radical summation, is still irrelevant.

Yet it is what is most attractive in the church as Christ body here on earth. It is still what brings and keeps people, not the latest music, the newest gimmicks or the best marketing campaigns. It is still the irrelevancy of its reason for being - love - which attracts people to it.

St Jude's is a community which maintains that truth. To quote Thomas Merton on community – “… we should not be too anxious about “getting anywhere” with community, except that community itself should “be” and celebrate itself in love.” (Thomas Merton - A Life In Letters 55)

Wednesday 24 June 2009

Daily Prayer

Finding it hard to have a daily routine of prayer? Well I have found an excellent resource developed by the Anglican Diocese of Brisbane. It contains the daily readings, a reflection and other information, all on the web and accessible anytime you fire up your computer.

The web address is: http://www.cdatoday.ministryeducation.org.au/

Just a thought.

Monday 22 June 2009

Fear v's Faith - Mark 3: 45 -51

Franklin D Roosevelt is famous for the saying, “the only thing we have to fear is fear itself – nameless, unreasoning, unjustified terror which paralyses needed efforts to convert retreat into advance.”[1]  This is the fourth sentence of his inauguration speech, the speech against which all such speeches are judged. 

It was a speech out of character with his campaign speeches, which were buoyant, optimistic and spiced with humour.  Yet here he takes on an unusually solemn, religious air.  It was 1933 and the Great Depression was making inroads at levels never seen before.  The economy was devastated, unemployment was rising uncontrollably and all that had previously seemed impregnable lay shattered at the feet of what was, by its own peculiar character, an optimistic society.

It was no more.

FDR went on in that speech to reiterate the truth that materialism is fleeting and only a true religious focus lasts; he set directions and sought to turn society around to face their fear, a fear that was both real and unreal, logical and illogical, powerful but weak.

He knew the truth – once we allow fear to generate a life of its own, we have given it a power it has no right to have. We have abdicated our senses and sensibilities, have ceased to think, and retreated into reaction as the only course of action available to us.

In reflection on our own life times, how often has fear been at the roots of all major concerns and conflicts in our society?  Often the fears are unsaid and unspoken.  In the recent swine flu panic it seems its more to do with the old adage, it’s not that you do everything you can, but you must be seen to do so, otherwise someone will sue you.   There is only one pig in Afghanistan, a predominantly Moslem country, and he is in the zoo.  Yet that one solitary pig who was simply minding his own business and doing piggy stuff was quarantined to lessen the spread of swine flu in that country!!  Bizarre. That is not to lessen the seriousness of the situation and we all need to take precautions but to understand that fear often hides within much of what we do.

It is interesting in our gospel reading today that the disciples, and those in the other boats around them, were more interested in waking Jesus and castigating him in the tone of the Old Testament Lamentations – “How long will you forget us?” – than sailing the boat.  They were fishermen.  This would not have been the first catastrophic storm they had encountered. The area where they were sailing was well known for them. They had survived before because they took actions appropriate to the situations they found themselves in.  They hadn’t drowned then and, if they had looked at the situation logically, probably wouldn’t now.

Yet we are told nothing about what they were doing just where they were looking, where they were going to sheet home the blame if the storm didn’t stop.  It wasn’t just the half-dozen in Jesus’ boat, it was the whole flotilla, standing on the rails of their vessels and pleading to Jesus to fix it.  Admirable faith but…… faith without works is not worth a crumpet.

When Jesus is woken he is angry, his tone is one of, why have you woken me for this? He dismisses the storm and turns toward them, sleep still in his eyes, and glares “Why are you afraid?” why did you wake me up?, “Have you no faith?”

They would have probably answered, ‘We do have faith, that’s why we woke you! We knew you would fix it!’ And this way of thinking is not illogical and in a sense is true, but Jesus was pointing at something else.  He was pointing at:

·      Faith in ourselves to deal with the situation.  There is no faith unless it increases our capabilities to live.  If all our faith is, is a constant begging for Jesus to solve our problems then our faith has some way to go.  Jesus, by his death and resurrection, his presence, provides the inspiration to be more, to cope with more, to overcome more than we could ever do on our own.

 

·      Faith that we are never abandoned, even tho it sometimes feels like it.  Right there in the middle of the storm they felt abandoned by Jesus, he was asleep for goodness sake, what was he thinking?  His response was he was a sleep for goodness sake and what were they thinking?   He was with them so he was in the storm as well as they were, and he had faith in their ability to negotiate the storm.  He was asleep because he had so much faith in them, yet they perceived that as disinterest and were overcome with fear. 


A great lesson for me was to understand just how much faith God had/has in me, he trusted me to accept the life and death of Jesus just for me, he trusted me to make the step toward him and then with him toward the world, he trusted me with the daunting task of living and doing it everyday; to put it bluntly he trusted me with a depth and a freedom I definitely do not trust myself with, and only rarely do I trust Him in the same way.

 

Jesus believed in those in the flotilla of boats around him in a way they simply could not see at the time.  There was indeed nothing to fear but fear itself for they had all they needed to survive that passing storm.

 

·      If you take a short moment later to reflect on the path you have journeyed with Jesus you will find this to be true, and like the Psalmist can say,

But I put my trust in your steadfast love; 

my heart will rejoice in your salvation.
  

I will sing to the Lord, 

for he has dealt so bountifully with me.[2]

And these are lessons for us, Jesus is not a magician who rescues us from the life as a human being, he asks us to find the faith to grow through the never-ending list of daily difficulties that seem to line up at our door waiting their turn to annoy us.  Our faith in Jesus is only real when it becomes a faith in ourselves.  Jesus is not an out there deity who shoots bolts of lightening to destroy our enemies, he is not Superman who flies in and beats back the baddies, Jesus lives and resides in us and it is within us we find what is necessary to persevere, to overcome, to keep on keeping on when it would be fair easier if we could just wake the Jesus asleep in the bottom of our boat.

He is already awake and living in us through his Holy Spirit and we simply have to accept that reality and wade into life confident that we are not alone. This confidence is not a proud self-confidence but a humble sense of the righteousness God gives us through Jesus, it is a rightful understanding of in whose power we stand and whose presence we live.

Jesus may have been asleep but he was present and in his presence there is not final harm to be had. The final harm for the Hebraic mind was death, but the fear of death no longer is real, for Jesus has dealt with that for us and now lives within us to continue our journey without any sense of final harm.

Yes we will encounter great difficulties, awful tragedies, enduring suffering but not alone, and not without the capabilities to ride them out.

It is interesting that the words Jesus spoke are noted as being to the sea, ‘“Peace! Be still!” 

I wonder if they were meant equally for those listening, and for us today.  Be still, have faith and you will find peace where once there was fear.

I just wonder.

 

 



[1] Franklin D. Roosevelt, Inaugural Address, March 4, 1933, as published in Samuel Rosenman, ed., The Public Papers of Franklin D. Roosevelt, Volume Two: The Year of Crisis, 1933 (New York: Random House, 1938), 11–16.

[2] Psalm 13:5-6

Tuesday 16 June 2009

Last Day In Rochester

Only 6 weeks ago I received an email from Paul Pearson inviting me to the 11th International Thomas Merton Conference in Rochester USA.  While it wasn't a personal invitation it seemed to me to be so, so I discussed it with my family and made the long trek to the USA.

I wasn't sure what I was coming to except I knew we would be discussing Merton and his life and work. I knew there would be scholars and academics, experts and guru's and indeed did find such.  But that wasn't all I found here.  I found the spirit of Merton whose love for dialogue and openness seems to imbue this group of people.

No-one here kids themselves that Fr Louis (Thomas Merton) was a perfect saint.  All are well aware that, like us, he is a frail and vulnerable human being which seems to be what attracts us to him. There are no glossy images or eloquent sweetness and light spoken about him.  He is just a bloke but a bloke who could see into and engage with the divine in others, whose ordinariness drew people to him and out of themselves but didn't mask that very humanness in himself.  I have had a chance to chat to some people who knew him and he was above all else simply human.  Fr Jim Conner who was Merton's Under Master of Novices spoke very candidly and openly about who Merton was, about some of the confict and some of his misdemeanours as did Herbet Mason yet, their underlying admiration and respect for him remains.  As does mine.

At the same time the integrity of his thought and writing is such that we are always discovering ourselves in the nuances of what he has to say. It seems that as we see him more clearly as a human being we hear him more clearly in what he says and we see and hear our selves more honestly.  In his words we lose a little more of our false self and discover a little more of our true self.

A clear focus for many seems to be Merton's turn to the East and especially his interaction with and practice of Zen Buddhism.  In our modern climate where alternative practices are in vogue Merton's engagement with Buddhism as practice to enlighten his Christian Monasticsm seems to have preempted our age.

Another focus of the conference was the engagement with other religions, particularly Islam and the Jews.  We shared in panels which spoke of these issues and religious services such as the Shabbat (service to usher in the Sabbath) which was moving.  It seems again that Merton has shown us the way to dialogue with others, particularly those of the Abrahamic traditions which we desperately need to hear and practice in our fragmented age.

The conference concluded with a Mass presided over by Monsignor Bill Shannon (92) who was the founding president of the ITMS (formed on the 10th anniversary of Merton's death in 1978).  Bill shared a homily which reinforced the need for us to rediscover Merton's ideas and particularly the need to engage in dialogue with other faiths including secular atheism and finished by saying simply, "It is getting late."

The mass was moving and very beautiful with wonderful singing and music.  Sitting in the chapel of the Sisters of St Joseph surrounded by the stain glass windows depicting women saints was poignant for a church, and unfortunately not just the Roman church, which denies women  a formal role.

Later in the day a group of us went to Genessee Abbey for afternoon prayers, another experience altogether which took us back to the middle-ages and a practice of monasticsm we have only read about.

Tomorrow I fly home, a very different person somewhere deep within than the one who came here on the 8th June.

Sunday 14 June 2009

Rochester Update.

Well today is the last day of the 11th International Thomas Merton Conference.  It has gone so fast.  Spending time in the shadow of Merton with scholars and ordinary folks like myself has been amazing.  The information has been great in the sessions but it has been the time in between which has been truly amazing.  

Catching up and networking with people I have only read about or seen on dust covers of books has been truly wonderful.  It seems that the spirit of Merton and his own ability to dialogue is very much at the core of all this.  I have developed and enjoyed dialogue with pious seekers from all over the world.  

This sense of hospitality imbues Merton and imbues the organisation set up in his memory.  I have not met people so open and free to share themselves and to deeply hear another as those here.  It has been a blessing and has changed my life in so many ways.

Today a group of us will travel to Genesee to the Monastry for afternoon prayers and spend sometime in Letchworth Park - the Grand canyon of the North West.

More Later.

Saturday 13 June 2009

Day 3 Rochester

 

Today (11th) was the first day of the conference and it was indeed an interesting day.

The morning was normal, rose had breakfast and then went to the book-shop at the trade exhibition.  Bought way too may books, all essential to my study of Merton and many difficult to get in Australia.  Was able to get a video biography as well as a cd of 4 lectures given by Merton to his students.  Can’t wait to hear his voice. This bookshop specialises in Merton and will provide me with most of the titles to finish off my collection (by about the year 2020!!!)

There is a display of Merton’s photography in the library as well as the Merton room with most of his titles and some memorabilia including Merton’s typewriter used to write all his books and his letters.

Last night had dinner with a group of notables at Aladdin’s Greek restaurant on the bank of the Erie Canal.  Food was wonderful.  SO was the conversation.

This afternoon the conference started with a Eucharist followed by a number of sessions.  As there is no Merton Society Chapter in Australia I went to the session of Chapters to see what is involved in getting a chapter off the ground in Australia.  A lot of help is available and I will use the Merton quiet day as the basis for promoting the possibility of a Merton group in Sydney.  Should be fun.

Tonight was the conference dinner.  Great meal followed by a number of awards and the president Don Greystone gave a talk on “Monastic in His Own Way: Thomas Merton and Leonard Cohen.”  This was very interesting, exploring the Zen Monasticism of Cohen alongside the monastic life of Merton.  Great stuff.

Now it is sleep time and hopefully I will be ready for a busy day to morrow.


More to come.

Thursday 11 June 2009

Day 2 Rochester

Today started quietly enough.  A quiet breakfast in Chatwell’s Café and then back to register for the conference and pay my fees etc.  Got the conference kit and sorted some stuff before lunch.  Shared lunch with some staff at the College before going back for an afternoon nap for an hour.

Then was joined by new roomie from Canada, Father Al who has been to all but one of these conferences, that is, he has being doing this for over 20 years.  Amazing guy – knows everyone and has taken me under his wing and introduced me to key players and helped me work out my program.

Have met key Merton scholars such as Jonathan Montaldo, Paul Pearson, Christine Bochen, Don Greystone, Kathleen Deigan (had dinner with her – amazing lady) and more.

In discussion with Paul Pearson from the Merton Centre will look at ways to reinvigorate interest in Merton and the ITMS in Sydney etc.  Very exciting.

For me this is simply mind boggling, just being here is something I never dreamed possible, but to be in the same room as all these amazing people and have them treat you as an equal and to value your ideas and thoughts, is so unusual for me.  It confirms that I am not, as I feel at home in Australia, a second rate person who will never be treated as an equal by the church (no final ordination) or by the academic community who institute a class structure based on degrees.  Here I am deemed to have something to say and my knowledge is valuable. 

Lots of interest in my clown spirituality and work with young men, several have asked if I am doing a paper on this here.  Perhaps that’s for Chicago in 2011.  Regardless already this time has reinvigorated my desire to offer Merton retreats and seminars as well as on clown spirituality and to do something constructive for ITMS in Australia.

I can’t wait for Thursday.

 

Wednesday 10 June 2009

Day 1 Rochester USA

Well it is now 8p.m. June 9 in Rochester NY and I have enjoyed two fabulous days.  The trip across was tiring but very interesting. The Sydney to Los Angeles   leg was long , thank goodness I got the extra leg room. Didn't sleep - they had the video going all the time and the flashing lights kept me awake. Sat   next to an old rocker, friend of Brian Eno's  - had been   out to Sydney for the VIVID festival - and we shared a lot in common- exchanged details and will now keep in touch. 
Was tired by LA and needed  to rest. Fortunately Immigration and Customs was a breeze - absolutely no  stress - couldn't have been more helpful. Had 3 hrs before connecting flight to Chicago (O'Hare) and was beginning to stress but slept most of   the way to Chicago.  Met a young girl from Rochester on the plane who had also flown in from Sydney - she studies at ANU. She showed me the ropes at Chicago - huge airport - had a sub and then popped on a 54 seater (jet) to Rochester - arrived here at midnight and got the shuttle to the hotel and crashed - slept for 9+ hrs.  
Got up at 10.30 and rang the College - Catholic Chaplain came and collected me. Have a room in a four room unit - brand new and beautiful.  Walked the couple of k's into Pitsford - beautiful - that wonderful evergreen of cedars and firs surrounded by squirrels - everything so green   and lush - the houses are apple pie and mum's hugs - every one with a white fence and USA flags flying - just beautiful. 
Found a shop called Fido's Place (and yes there is a Fido!) and bought Monty (our dog) a new NY Yankees collar and bandana (all fully licensed merchandise would you believe).  
I then walked another 2 miles out to the mall and went to Stein MArt - like DJ's. Got 3 new summer shirts (two Harley Davidson shirts and one plain) plus a pair of shorts plus a brown belt (at last) and a red ball cap. Walked back.  Had a Guinness at the Pittsford Pub and chatted to the locals and then dinner at the College and am now at the dining hall where there is wifi connection.  
Have found the US locals the MOST friendly, laid back, helpful and wonderful people and considering most of them have been Govt officials I am impressed.  There are 300 people coming to the conference, seems me and the Kiwi are the only Southern Hemispherers - some coming from China but most from USA.   Should be amazing. One of the key writers on Merton will be here - William   Shannon - he is now 92!  Looking forward for it.  
That's about all.  Talk to you all tomorrow.

Tuesday 2 June 2009

Help for the Spiritual Journey

In a recent discussion it was drawn to my attention that people seek assistance to understand and negotiate their lives.  For me that is also true and as a result I have, over a number of years, sought the help of a Spiritual Director as well as practised the Liturgy of the Hours as two tools to assist my spiritual equilibrium.

Some will ask what is spiritual direction?  Spiritual direction occurs when one person dialogues with another for the specific purpose of deepening their spiritual growth.  A spiritual director is the person who supports another to reflect on and in their spiritual journey.  Spiritual direction often takes place as part of a professional relationship, is regular (monthly) and is instigated by the person seeking support.  It is not counselling or pastoral care but is explicitly spiritual and moves along at the pace and initiative of the individual seeking direction.  It is not about finding someone to give you the answers but about finding someone to journey with you.  

Spiritual direction is something I offer as a member of the Australian Network for Spiritual Direction and do so for a number of people.  For those within the St Jude's community this is offered at no cost as  normal part of my ministry.  Please feel free to contact me if you wish to explore this for yourself.

Others will ask what is the Liturgy of the Hours?  For Anglicans it is Morning and Evening Prayer, for others from say the Catholic domain it involves a number of others times of prayer.  Saying Morning and Evening prayer connects us to God and the myriad of other Christians around the world who follow this discipline, it confirms in us that our faith is more than simply a Sunday 'thing' and it gives us a disciplined approach to prayer. The order for such services are to be found in the Prayer Book.  For those who would like a more modern approach I suggest you go to the following link for a number of options.  I find that also helpful - http://www.liturgy.co.nz/virtualchurch/chapel.html

Joy - the engine which powers our lives.

Sitting in my office at home I look out across a park which is full of young school children and puppy dogs running free. It is a scene of unbridled joy, the simple joy of being alive and free to do and become what ever you can dream of. Whatever happens in the future will be a challenge but right now, at this moment in their lives, all is possible, everything is there simply for them to reach and grasp it.

Joy is the engine which powers our lives. Suddenly, post another 50+ birthday I get it.  Nothing has changed.  All is still achievable, dreams can still be dreamed and lived.  The key? Joy of life.  The joy of being here, now and breathing in and out.  Only death can prevent us from being all we want to be.  Not swine flu, global financial crisis, ill health or whatever, only death.  Because while we can breathe we can still dream and enjoy the act of each breath and what it allows us to do.

8 years ago I had lost almost everything.  I stood in the ashes of a career, a business and watched as my house and all the trappings of success were taken away.  All I had was myself and my wonderful wife Gaye and our daughter Katrina.  I wondered how I would go on, what would happen next.

Yet 8 years later life has fulfilled my dreams in ways I never could have imagined. I became ordained as a deacon in the Anglican church, achieved commendations and success in work with young people and within the RAN, have finished my post graduate studies withe the Masters to be finished this year, invited to study at the Marcel Marceau School of Mime, spent a week in Taize and Assisi, went to Rome and am now on my way to the USA to  a conference on my interest (and some would say spiritual father) Thomas Merton.  All I could not have imagined 8 years ago!!!

Life is indeed a joy and gives joy.  It is indeed joy, not happiness or security or certainty which gives me hope.  Joy in my relationship with God through Jesus Christ which says that despite all, and all in all, all will indeed be well.  And it has.

Joy in the noise of young people running free in the park, roses in the garden and faces in the street - joy in each breath which says I am still present and in the presence of joy itself.  Life is awesome for its source is awesome and that source is the eternal joy who is our creator, redeemer and sustainer.